TW: Some people may find this distressing
Singer Sinead O’Connor has been admitted to hospital just days after the tragic loss of her 17-year-old son, Shane.
In a desperate and saddening thread, O’Connor detailed her thoughts and feelings on Twitter following the death of her son Shane.
She said: “I’ve decided to follow my son.
“There is no point living without him. Everything I touch, I ruin. I only stayed for him. And now he’s gone. I’ve destroyed my family. My kids don’t want to know me. I am a shit person. And you all only think I’m nice because I can sing. I’m not.”
https://twitter.com/OhSineady/status/1481639627970658311
The artist continued to call herself a “piece of shit” while also stating she doesn’t “deserve to live and everyone who knows me will be better off without me”.
She continued: “I’m on my own the last three days. Because I’m Shit. And rightly, no one wants to know me. I’ve upset Shane’s dad because I tweeted the funeral. I’m such a twat. I’m sorry Donal. I’m lonely. Twitter is for lonely people. Monsters like me get terribly lonely.”
https://twitter.com/OhSineady/status/1481639640138502145
“This is no ones fault but mine,” she added. “Shane’s death is no ones fault but mine. Mine is no ones fault but mine.”
The 55-year-old admitted she doesn’t want to be in a world without Shane. “I don’t deserve to live. That’s my fault. No one else’s,” she continued.
https://twitter.com/OhSineady/status/1481639646492647436
“I was a fuck up from the day I was born. It’s not my parents fault or my family or childrens fault. It’s mine. God made me wrong. So I’m sending myself back and I’m finding the. Only person on this earth who ever truly loved me.”
https://twitter.com/OhSineady/status/1481659387554971648
O’Connor later posted to Twitter again, this time writing: “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that. I am with cops now on way to hospital. I’m sorry I upset everyone. I am lost without my kid and I hate myself. Hospital will help a while. But I’m going to find Shane. This is just a delay.”
If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, please make use of these critical resources:
- Samaritans – 116 123
- Campaign Against Living Miserably (CALM) – 0800 58 58 58, or use webchat
- Shout Crisis Text Line – Text “SHOUT” to 85258
- NHS – 111
